Saturday, April 20, 2013

My Christian Exploration Journey of Being an "Empath" and having the gift of "Knowing"


For as long as I can remember, I have believed in God. My mother used to tell me that I was her angel, sent to her as a gift from God. My father was raised in a traditional Catholic Family, where he went to church regularly. From a young age, I was given the option of believing in God. It was never forced on me; however, it was strongly encouraged. I am glad that this is the case, for I am not sure where I would be in life without my belief in God.

I was baptized as a baby in the Lutheran Church, only because it is the one that my parents were a member of at that time in their life. Then when my father began going to church again at St. Pete’s Catholic Church, he signed me up for confirmation classes, first communion lessons, etc… at the Catholic Church. There have been many faiths that I have observed and/or experienced through the lessons of those around me. I have never been excited about religion as a whole, but rather I have always been curious to understand the underlying concept of God because He is the root of all religions and spiritual matters.

I figure that while religion may be the dictation of man, in how to worship or apply God in your life… God is absolutely real because He is the one thing that all men, no matter what religion, agree upon! There are many different types of “Spirituality” that are practiced by man here on Earth. But when you pick them apart and look at the various belief systems acquired, the basis of them are usually all stemmed from the same basic beliefs, no matter what terms they may use to define or explain them.
I was allowed to experience God on my own. I was allowed to attend whatever church I found interesting. I was allowed to freely explore my own Spirituality and acquire my own belief system. My father always guided me and always did his best to answer any questions that I had, but he NEVER told me what I should believe. He told me what he was taught, what he learned through his own experiences and what beliefs he had that gave Him comfort. I am eternally grateful for this, as I don’t know where I would be without it. Too many times, children who are forced to believe in God and practice as tightly wound Christians at a young age, actually grow into adults that end up resenting God and turn into agnostics or atheists.

I have applied the same strategy with my children. I educate them on my active Christianity morals, values, beliefs, etc… and allow them to think and draw their own conclusions. I leave an open ended forum for discussion about things and trust and know that God will lead them in the right direction. We must not force adult spirituality on children, but we must at least give them the seed of His existence in their lives. If you never know that something exists, then you never explore knowledge regarding that something.

I am only in my early 30’s and there is still so much that I feel I have to learn about God. My spirituality journey will be never ending, as I will always seek to know and understand Him and His will better. I will continue to strive to gain wisdom and knowledge to apply to my life. So while I feel that I live by means of a solid Christian value system, I still only feel like a “baby” in Christ. God’s wondrous works and presence in the world is so huge that it is hard to believe that I will ever know the full picture of it all. But while I am alive, I will always strive to try and reach a full understanding, a grasping of the whole picture, to share with others.

Man-made religions have various beliefs and understandings. It can become very confusing to us, seeking out God, to apply and know what it is truly of God and what is only of man. My perspective, I choose to leave religion aside and only seek an intimate and solid relationship with God.

My spiritual journey was fueled from a self-exploration process that I embarked on. For as long as I can remember, I have experienced things such as dreams that come true, an innate knowing (or intuition) that is so strong, it’s undeniable and a constant desire to heal others. I began seeking to understand these things through a psychology degree that teaches me the workings of the human body, mind and emotions; but, that is not what has given me the most understanding. What has given me the most comfort in not feeling like I was “weird” or “crazy” is seeking God and his various gifts and abilities that He gives to man to achieve His ultimate Will for human kind.

This blog will be a sharing of experiences, research, etc… that will attempt to explain spiritually and scientifically why I am an “EMPATH” who burdens the pain and feelings of others and why I experience “KNOWING” that others do not possess. I hope that you will find my blog invoking of thought and spiritual exploration.           God Bless to all,   Miranda Rhuda

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